Life...Its been only 17 years and i know that you arre thinking wow this girl is just weird but i know i am and i need to get some stuff off my chest....well this past year i had a realtionship with a ral shitty guy and thats a long story but it was a pretty rough break up and there were all these rumors going around about me and him or just me in general so i just was like omg i am so tired of this high school drama crap so then school was out and i went on this amazing trip to DC with this thing called youth tour its a long story to try and explain it. well i went and met so many amazing people and i had the time of my life. i learned so much about our country about different people and most of all myself.

I can say that i have matured and grown as a human a person...a woman. i know what i want in life i know what i need in life i know how to get what i want in life and i cant wait to get there. this past summer was such and experice on every level i tried abunch of new things i learned what i like to do what i love to do and what i hate. it was all just a wonderful learning experience. and now i am almost half way through my senior year. 14 years of life in school is almost gone. i am going to college so i still have four more left but this past year i think has gotten me prepared forwhat is to come with life...

Life...is so wonderful like the pastor said today we will go through trials and it will only make us stronger. and i have to say with all that i have been through not only this past year but all my life it that i can life some heavy trial weights. and in all the trials that are to come i need to learn to trust God and know that he will see me through them all. and  i love him very much for all of that. i know i have written a lot and i dont expect anyone to read all of it i just needed to vent and let it all out.

So thats how life....has been....

Life....

Its hard...

But having a friend that understands EXCATLY how you feel is amazing...

Her not always being close to me is ok but i knoe that if i ever needed her she would be there in a heart beat!

i love her and i am so glad we are getting close agian i feel so myself...

we saw sex and the city this weekend....

It was hard watching it because of all the love

One women was getting married and the man never showed up. i feel thats excatly what will happen to me but i hope not

i dont even think i am going to get married die old lonley.

but you never know things might end up differently.

signed <still> Broken Hearted 

Ok so me and jimmy broke up...i havent told him y but the reason is. that he was controlling...i got scared i was falling in love (i think) but either that or he was talking me into it you know like everytime i did something he had to know EVERYTHING like dude give me some space. but like he made me change a lot like i was totally different but it was a mind thing like he might not of known he was doing it but..

HE WAS. and it scared me i never get scared i am the independent strong KARI nothing scares me..but he did and thats not healthy nor good. so i think it was for the best so who knows what it could have been like in the future i still havent told him he is really confused and angry which scares me even more he stops me in the hall was writes me note i just dont know what to da any more my mom keeps threatening to send him to jail because of his age. but i dont want her to because i still care for him..(is that bad?)